Today I am angry.
Yesterday marked one week since the loss of our baby. I told my husband that morning that it was going to be a rough day for me. I thought he would listen. It's not easy to have discussions when you have a seven year old constantly listening in, so sometimes you really just need to read between the lines.
That morning I requested we go for a drive and find somewhere to buy a special plant, a tree to plant that afternoon. I eventually found what I was looking for, a small olive tree seemed fitting.
Exhausted and emotional, when we returned home I lay on the couch, needing to be alone for a while to prepare myself for the afternoon. Husband declared he was going to wash the cars and mow the lawns, which was fine, there would still be time. Then, for some bizarre reason, a neighbour came over and suggested they replace some warped boards on our front landing. WTF? No, no, no - not convenient. Tell him tomorrow, another day, any time but now!
I didn't go outside, I was too upset and didn't want to be the screaming banshee wife, so I lay inside and cried until my anger and frustration took over.
By the time he came back in, it was nearly dark and just too late for the plans I had.
I'm still upset and angry.
Yesterday marked one week since the loss of our baby. I told my husband that morning that it was going to be a rough day for me. I thought he would listen. It's not easy to have discussions when you have a seven year old constantly listening in, so sometimes you really just need to read between the lines.
That morning I requested we go for a drive and find somewhere to buy a special plant, a tree to plant that afternoon. I eventually found what I was looking for, a small olive tree seemed fitting.
Exhausted and emotional, when we returned home I lay on the couch, needing to be alone for a while to prepare myself for the afternoon. Husband declared he was going to wash the cars and mow the lawns, which was fine, there would still be time. Then, for some bizarre reason, a neighbour came over and suggested they replace some warped boards on our front landing. WTF? No, no, no - not convenient. Tell him tomorrow, another day, any time but now!
I didn't go outside, I was too upset and didn't want to be the screaming banshee wife, so I lay inside and cried until my anger and frustration took over.
By the time he came back in, it was nearly dark and just too late for the plans I had.
I'm still upset and angry.
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